Hi. 26'02'09. 2049.
I want to try new things ; Things alive people never try before.
I want to play with death. Have you try it before? By now, I'm open to any harm out there. I'm free from phobia. I'm not emo.
Thanks to PMB, that I'm just in time to stop myself from breaking down.
I'm so lost that I dont know what to do. Feared to see the expression of disappointment on all my sub teacher's face.
Touched when geog cher cried for us, hoping us to do better.
Touched when MT teacher say we are his source of energy to work.
Touched when teachers try to push us, in all ways.
Touched when MR choh is always there for 4B. Thank you all my sub teachers.
The more they do, the more I could smell my own phobia.
中四生活千篇一律。自由受限制。不是读书，就是练习，读书练习，练习读书，令我有点想吐的感觉。
再讲多少也于事无补。少壮不努力，老大徒伤悲。但人无千日好，花无百日红，不经一事，不长一智嘛！
老师，请你相信我。我会努力的。不敢保证能得到你们设的标尊，但至少我会努力！
Hi. 18'02'09. 2015
Mr. Choh, " I don't see any guy or man in class 4B. They are just BOY. "
Ha. How true. I'm not insulting, just stating a fact.
Yesterday he came back to class and give us lecture, due to some conflict.
Puti cried. I cried. Christ cried.
Puti cried is because of the lack of unity in the class. Christ, I don't really know. She used to be so strong. Me? Just for waste. ;D
I quarreled with Mingren. He was somehow, complaining on the class shirt design.
I find it nice. Christ designed it. I helped her, but not much. She put in alot of effort, and that is the comment she get. When she is designing it, what are mingren and his clique doing? Playing catching. Yea. SEC 4 BOY playing catching. (:
I cant remember whether is it me or him who shouted first, Eventually, the quarrel started.
He start shooting vulgarities. Instead of ignoring, I returned his swearing.
Sin committed. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have shouted vulgarity, how immature of me.
But I still dont think I am wrong, in terms of commenting on him for commenting on christ's design. xp
4 Days. Since sunday. Haven't yet have a single word with my mother.
Sad.
15'02'09. 1229.
I DON'T hate my mother.
Hi. 13'02'09. 2029. Labels: I'm not emo.
Felt left out. English lesson. I suppose I'm to blame for this. For talking in class with jialu. Miss Lim seems to dislike me, my attitude. I approach her, she rejects me at times. Hx approach her, she attended. I'm hurt.
I'm obese.
I wanna cut down on my diet. I felt so numb.
When attention is not on me, at times I felt left out.
When attention is set on me, I felt annoyed.
What is the point of me living? But I wont wanna die by saying that.
Tomorrow is valentine's day.
I have no idea how to spend it.
For the first time in my life, 5 invitation on This day.
Not BGR please. 2 from friends. 3 from others.
I've decided to go for class cheer,
And go study with Peh mingbin. Depends on how long I take to study.
I dont have the luxury of time. Pardon it.
Happy valentine's day, girlfriends.
Happy valentine's day, peeps.
Happy valentine's day, Terence Goh.
Hi. 11'02'09. 2033.
This is bad. I somehow feel that she expected me to give and her role is to take,
In our friendship. She dont use to be like this. Is it the popularity that changed her?
She seems more demanding than before. I ask for help, she will respond to my need.
But now she ignore. I'm hurt, that instant when she ignored me when I asked for it.
I'm hurt.
What else? Yes. No secret. But basic respect and privacy should still be preserved.
I wish it's the tons of homework that stressed me up, I hope I'm just being sensitive. Ofcoz. Right? Hmm.. Nice try..
P.S I still love you.
Hi. 05'02'09 ; 2202. Labels: I'm tired tired tired.
I'm left helpless. I've got shockingly good results for Mathss that I never thought I got such a day..
-E maths : 6/20.
-A maths : 0/30.
Hmm.. And I thought those promises on teaching me, giving me free tuition is from heart, but it's all just FOC. Haiix.
Peh mingbin. What a kor you are. Dissapointing ! =x
Seriously, jacq jie, I am in the urge of needing some help, and am helpless.
My 13 points and below seems so near yet so far.
I'm always commented as ; Ain't stupid, ain't retard, yet lazy. Lazy Lazy Lazy.
I did spend times on those homeworks. But.. It don't seems to be working..
Cathrine, 6teen.
Need no further intro.
TEARS -
~ Trying hard not to hear ;
~ Everything that surround ;
~ Ain't Adolescent ;
~ Revealing dissatisfaction ;
~ Sorrow to be hidden .
THAT ' list of desires ' .
Do I need one?(;
~ fly me to the moon.
- DEAD SILENCE .
I don't need that . Speak your mind . (;
- ADIEU.
- VAULT .
June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010
- MELODY .
