- Unsuccessful escape .

Thursday, October 9, 2008

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This week damn pissed.
I cannot concentrate on revising for exam and the heat on my butt is so strong and yet i do nothing to it.
Hopeless.
I would like to ask.. What makes me the way i am.
Why have you got 0 tolerance for me.
I always thought we were the best out of every and we are always into each other.
You dont seems to look at me as one of your beloved. I loved you so, but i cant feel the same from you.
Not just you. and also you. The both of you. One, always have 0 tolerance for me and was always doing things the way you wanted things to be. You can walk out of me just like that, without realizing, i'm alone.
And you. Always giving me the Stay-away-from-me face. If you despise me so much, just tell me can. That cold face of yours really makes me sad. And maybe a bit of depression. I sometimes wonder why.. Is it that iam not good enough to put out with you guys?
I am reffering to both of you. Huixin and jialu. I love both of you. Please dont treat me the way you treated me recently. I'm damn depressed now that how i wished i can fade away.

Christ and yanhong. You both were getting so well that i can't help but think that i am the odd-one-out with you guys. I'm sorry i hasn't been talking to you that much, christ. I dont know what to talk to you about recently since you have yanhong to talk to. And yanhong, i'm sorry i wanted to talk to you but i think that i am pulling you back. Well, am i? With me, your grade wasn't improving. And without me you look much livelier. I'm sorry to have hold you back so much.

But anyway, after i changed my pm, so many people come and talk to me and encouraged me. I didn't know there are so many of my online friends are so good to me.

And most importantly, i wanted to say;
If i retain, dont miss me guys. I've decided, I wanted to drop out of school.
Not determined to, but i can't take the blow.

- Ain't a good season ... ♠ Thursday, October 09, 2008