Hmm. Nothing. I have to retake my exam. Thats all is bothering me now.
But somehow, why dont i feel the stress? I dont seems to care. Thats something bad.
The next coming up activity - Sec3 Npcc camp. DAMN i dont wanna go! I dont want. But i have to. Aiyo. Just hoping that for the 3 day, My Girl stuff will not be visiting. It wont bring any good. But worst. Pissed.
Pray that mdmss have mercy on me and not leaving me alone with strangers again. And i mean AGAIN. Every camp i happen to go, I am always alone. Alone as in, no partners to sleep with, no people to talk to. Last year, i am grouped with 8 total stranger. But wow? I managed to get over it with them, for like, 3 day? Thats something.x)
Aiyo, Crap lorh. KHX You good. You berry good. You berry berry berry the good. Hummph;
Go work never tell us. Leaving jialu and me for the holiday. ^#$&^#% &^%#^$@# %$#&^%$#@^
Hmm.. Fang guo ni first.=p
Anyway, Happy belated bangala day! Not i say de._. Leon goh say de. I find that cute. Hah. Not racist.
Hmm..
What a day. A fair day. HA.
In the morning, Jialu, liu yue, serene and me went to eat sakura at jurong science centre. Ha.
Before that, liu yue and me waited for like, 20 min for both princess._. LOL.
We decided to go shop first. bought a shirt. Hmm.
Next we make our way to science centre and i saw kenji, Zong ying's mate, zong heng's younger brother. I say hi, he look at me. LOL. Thats all._. Nothing special though. LOL.
Next we went into sakura and start eating. We knew better that we are full, way too full..
But we keep on stuffing food in our stomach to fill up our $25.. HA, the food is nice*_* Kinda touched by those food. HOW LAME.
Hmm.. so next, jialu and me.. haha i dont know what to say.
We took alot of chocolate and stuff it inside our bag.. haha. Then we go le.
Bla bla bla. Today really nothing else to say.. Hmm..
Jialu, giving cold face is not reffering to you. It's reffering to hx.
0 tolerance for me and walk out away from me is you._.
Sorry to have let you know. i never know it makes you cry.
When typing the previous post i thought i can hold my tears back, however, i did not managed to.
And may i ask you something, if i haven't told you that something is on with my blog, will you visit? hmm..
But atleast you are better than hx. she no emotions at all._.
Or she dont even realize that this website exist? hmm..
anyway, thanks for replying. Thanks for loving me too.
Dont worry, you shi bi you de. Meaning you will have to lost something to gain something.
I suppose i've lost all the love, but at least, i gained sisters. Both of you.
I always wanted to say this to you guys face to face, but i ain't no reason for saying so.
Let me say it out;
Thank you for everything. Iloveyou.
This week damn pissed.
I cannot concentrate on revising for exam and the heat on my butt is so strong and yet i do nothing to it.
Hopeless.
I would like to ask.. What makes me the way i am.
Why have you got 0 tolerance for me.
I always thought we were the best out of every and we are always into each other.
You dont seems to look at me as one of your beloved. I loved you so, but i cant feel the same from you.
Not just you. and also you. The both of you. One, always have 0 tolerance for me and was always doing things the way you wanted things to be. You can walk out of me just like that, without realizing, i'm alone.
And you. Always giving me the Stay-away-from-me face. If you despise me so much, just tell me can. That cold face of yours really makes me sad. And maybe a bit of depression. I sometimes wonder why.. Is it that iam not good enough to put out with you guys?
I am reffering to both of you. Huixin and jialu. I love both of you. Please dont treat me the way you treated me recently. I'm damn depressed now that how i wished i can fade away.
Christ and yanhong. You both were getting so well that i can't help but think that i am the odd-one-out with you guys. I'm sorry i hasn't been talking to you that much, christ. I dont know what to talk to you about recently since you have yanhong to talk to. And yanhong, i'm sorry i wanted to talk to you but i think that i am pulling you back. Well, am i? With me, your grade wasn't improving. And without me you look much livelier. I'm sorry to have hold you back so much.
But anyway, after i changed my pm, so many people come and talk to me and encouraged me. I didn't know there are so many of my online friends are so good to me.
And most importantly, i wanted to say;
If i retain, dont miss me guys. I've decided, I wanted to drop out of school.
Not determined to, but i can't take the blow.
Cathrine, 6teen.
Need no further intro.
TEARS -
~ Trying hard not to hear ;
~ Everything that surround ;
~ Ain't Adolescent ;
~ Revealing dissatisfaction ;
~ Sorrow to be hidden .
THAT ' list of desires ' .
Do I need one?(;
~ fly me to the moon.
- DEAD SILENCE .
I don't need that . Speak your mind . (;
- ADIEU.
- VAULT .
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- MELODY .
