Oh gosh. What happened?
This whole week, sleep in my cousin's house.. something is at amiss.
This whole week i haven't been eating much.
But what i take in is just right for me.
I still dont think anything is happenning to me.
My body is functioning just as normal, no much fatter nor thin.
But when i reached home, my father was there, watching tv.
When he saw me, he say,"What happened to you? you look so pale, so much thinner!"
I was like, huh? One week and that makes so much different? lol. I thought i ate just right everyday. Then followed by my aunt.
She agrees with my father and carry on and on, saying things that is irrelevant._.
Then they keep looking for things for me to eat. Quite sickenning. I'm absolutely fine.
It's not me who is ill.. LOL. Is SOMEONE ELSE in wdl.=x
Just now, we went for dinner. My cousin and us.
Inorder to make them feel better about me, and to convince them that i'm absolutely fine, i keep stuffing foods into my mouth. And now what? I feel damn miserable now..
May god bless us all.
Hmm.. what is the best way to mug? Any idea?
What is the best way to study! I just couldn't concentrate.
None of the sub can get my full attentiveness.. Thats bad!
What else? My mum called me just now, when liu yue and me just reached lakeside MRT.
She is quite unreasonable. She say where'd i gone? And say i must have been out with friends fooling and playing around, doing nonsense things.
What the hell. i swear, gurantee plus chop that i have been in the library all this while. Mugging and mugging. I tried so hard to concentrate and i really wish i can do well. I am very tired already. but yet i perservered. I tried to open my eyes as wide as i can. My eyes is always small.. dont know why._.
These few weeks, this few days, i have been mugging and mugging, trying my best. Go library almost everyday.
I thought my mum understand that and could see my effort. I don't really expect a "jiayou!" or "keep it up!" i don't expect her to say anything of sorts. But at least, she don't have to say," You must have went somewhere to play. You better stop all this nonsense of yours. Make sure you are home straight after school everyday. Dont go out fooling around and start to concentrate on your studies! when can grow up?"(something of sorts.) ._.
Nevermind! LOL. What the~~ how to concentrate more?! How to give my full attentiveness!!
Anyone have any idea?!
Why am i repeating the same thing._.
Erm.. To a guy named terence out there._.
Why are you creating such an impact on me?
Why? can you tell me why?
Why did you left a footprints in my life?
Why did you come around and go just like that?
Why? Why you delete me?
Heii, the day before eveything happened, we seems fine.. dont we?
Why you make a promise saying you wont leave me just a few days ago and you break it just a few days moment?
Why did you lied to me saying you will be here for me, that you wont leave me?
Why did you delete everything?
And most of all, how have you managed to come and go so instantly?
How you managed to pick up and put down just as easy?
Can you answer all my question? I just wanna know why.
I dont need any promise, dont need any reason. All i need is answers._.
What am i suppose to do?._.
Yesterday sprain my waist. Today what happened? stomach cramp or what?
The pain is creeping in.. so painful.. If i cannot survive, To all out there, take care and lead your life as best as you can.
With love,
Cathrine .__.
Ohmigod. Awwww~ wondering how on earth did a plump girl like me sprain my ankle._.
The pain is killing me. I cant bend my body._. That's bad!
SEE! My audi mei sent me a birthday card~ ha. <33
LAOPO! you see, i also have your photos! although all of it contain me too=x
HAHA. One of the ss taken by lyn laopo when i webcam her. LOL
This post specially for terence. LOL
IN your blog you say:
"I'm pushing myself to the limits now.I know many say that a person has his/her limits.But I chose to believe that it is bounder-less.Because when I push myself to a new limit, I'll have to bypass that new limit each time I prepare for exams.Sleep suddenly seems like a luxury to me now and I'm craving for it.But still, I have to do away with this."
But i say :
"Limit is for you to stop, not for you to push.. when you say limit, please stop and do not push" LOL!!!
And you also say:
"And this one's for Cathrine.Hey girl.It's always better to love and get hurt than not to love at all.I know you had some bad experiences in life but still there's no use being once bitten twice shy in life.Life has all feelings and emotions.Why? Because feelings and emotions make us humans.No one said life would be smooth sailing and no one said that it'll be pain-free.All we have to do is to take it to our stride and courageously move on everyday.I know, pain is unbearable.But still, control the pain and don't let it control your life. "
And i dont know what to say. when you really went through all the pain, you will find it really worthless to love again. See how everything goes bah. i'm not sure what will happen tomorrow, i dont know will i be able to love again tomorrow. God knows all of them well.. I dont take charge for my fate. LOL. Thanks anyway haha. Your words somehow make sense to me though.x))
HA. I came back to post as promised days before. Although it's kinda late.xp See, the biggest mickey is from JYL. Then the eeyore is from junlin. The piglet from eric. The winnie the pooh from my sis. HEE! Then the shirt behind is the most expensive one. From 5-6 of them. ERm.. KHX, meiting, me, Lynn po, LYH, TSH, And who else? think so this few people. HA. Thank you all of you. Thank you. ALways love all of you as my friend. Jialu say she bought me one present. HA. LOVE her too. Now i really like to say, My friends, i love all of you. ALL of. I love HJL, KHX, LYH. All of you. Sometimes i dont really show how much i love or care bout all of you, but i really love all of you de! another thing.. check out my bed~ IT'S damn nice. Dont be jealous of me x)
I was wrong to say that i dosen't have any present for my birthday. I received 3 of them on teacher's day. Well, actually is 4. LOL
:P update tomorrow!
Cathrine, 6teen.
Need no further intro.
TEARS -
~ Trying hard not to hear ;
~ Everything that surround ;
~ Ain't Adolescent ;
~ Revealing dissatisfaction ;
~ Sorrow to be hidden .
THAT ' list of desires ' .
Do I need one?(;
~ fly me to the moon.
- DEAD SILENCE .
I don't need that . Speak your mind . (;
- ADIEU.
- VAULT .
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- MELODY .
