- Unsuccessful escape .

Friday, April 25, 2008

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Now at yanhong house nia.. i'm still alive.. dont worry^^
eh, how many more days...? monthss right? haiix..
I remember this few days got alot of things to mention on my blog, but totally forget bout everything..
Anyway, today, sports day like so sian..
4a cheer like copy here and there... derrhh.. jialu also say so..
But, in the end, still the best, 5won!!
Our class got the best designed flag of sec 3's!! haha..

TOday helped a indian girl to raise money for the europe trip.. quite fun..
although no CIP hour but it's fun helping out^^
We went aound collecting the finished cansss and crash them flat flat.. haha..
After that, watch a lil of the race, and was in a daze.. suddenly saw kailun shouting at a uppersec.. Then they bu shuang, go and push kailun, more than once..
Kailun no reaction at all-...-, then the uppersec throw an ice on kailun, he still no reaction.
His face very bu shuang also.. then shout back at the guy.
Then i quickly ask ah boon, who is standing beside me to help kailun..
the uppersec threw a dollar at kailun's face..
then end up ah boon also bu shuang that upper sec, shout at him even louder than kailun..xD
After that, kailun call ms tan and settle.. HE started to cry silently out of anger.. lol..
I think is that, the uppersec refuse to return the drinks' money, so kailun asked him to return..
and this is what happened.. And i heard ah boon say that someone has stolen 2 cans of drinks..
tsk tsk tsk.. What a dispontment to that person.. this is a so called fund raising and he or she steal it for his or her own enjoyment.. shame on you..

- Ain't a good season ... ♠ Friday, April 25, 2008

Sunday, April 20, 2008

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Btw btw, here to post a quick post. lalala~ LALALA~ TODAY FUN LORH.. HAHA
just now continuosly praying praying and more praying.. haha.. then very funny..
When my uncle falling, he reached out for something, then his hand press on the paper car then the whole thing like.. got hole le.. hahahahahahahahahaha! laugh until i almost faint.(got like that de meh? i dont know how to sayxD)
Then after pray pray pray until about 11, we took alll the stuff to burn.
I took 4 boxes containing hell notes. HAHA. The box like so big.. cover my vision somemore. Stupid, THe box keep sliding towards my face. Then i use my face to stop it from dropping. Imagine larh, what a stupid image it will be=...=
ANyway, we helped in preparing it to burn.. In order to burn everything, we have to seperate the paper.. aiya, nvm if you dont get what i mean. I also dont know how to say.. lol..
Then got some hell notes drop outside the gauze( is it call guaze? a very big big metal larh.. got hole de..) then i pick out.. trying to throw it inside. But too high liao.. cannot reach.. it keep flying out to the floor.. Then my big cousin say" why wanna throw till so xin ku? like that, stuck inside the hole can liao marh!" hahaha! damn funny.. =X
HE damn funny sial.. the expression.. nvm, dont understand, i will forgive you. haha
gtg.. byeby!!!!

- Ain't a good season ... ♠ Sunday, April 20, 2008

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Hi. I'm not dead yet. i somehow managed to staqy alive in that torturing empty house.
It's ok, this is some kinda survivor?=p I manage to stay alive, heii i am getting stronger in someway.. thats a good thing^^
Btw, cathrine is not back yet. she still have long way to go, fighting against the loneliness and toughness of her life ahead. =p I am now, at my granma's funeral, using my cousin's lappy.
Yes, my grandma died 3 days ago. today is the fourth day and tomorrow she will be burnt..
She didn't manage to win the stupid illness of her's, but nevermind. At least she did not have to suffer anymore. Thats a good thing too, isn't it?
My mother and her big brother and second sister, my aunt and uncle.. isn't getting well at all..
My mother now is doing her on stuff while them doing thiers. but we still pray together. Thats the best happening out of the worst. Actually, my mother felt that is them who dont want her to interfere in anything or what so ever, so she wanted to prove that she can do everything by herself. HEii, if both parties give way or thought for each other, i think my grandma can go even more peacefully lorh! whatthe hell, both parties are at fault!!! hmm.. what ever it is!! stuff and bother..

- Ain't a good season ... ♠ Sunday, April 20, 2008

Monday, April 14, 2008

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Today went to hospital again.. I looked at my grandma.. tears drop down without me realizing..
She is suffering more than she already suffered yesterday.. My heart sank instantly..
SHE look even more pale then she is yesterday.. She is going to leave us very very soon..
Just look at her makes me really sad.. I really wish she could get well.. even if it is 28% i still wish she could get well.. please dont let her suffer anymore..

But the only way is to let her go in peace.. i wish she felt peace.. as my mother and her sister,
which is my aunt, isn't getting well at all.. thats something she always worry about..
Haiix.. another thing is.. because the percentage is so low, my mother said we have to move out of my aunt house coz my grandma is dying and for some chinese religious, it is not good to stay in
others house when some close family is dying.. so, my mother decided that we move in to that
house in ghim moh(buona vista) tomorrow which is empty in advance and haven't even renovated yet.. how am i going to live in that kinda place.. torturing.. imagine.. with nothing at all.. only beds.. ARGH! forget it.. and what worst is have to wake up earlier than before..
MY mother also explained that we can only renovate the hosue after the 49th day death of my grandma.. This is also part of the religious.. religious religious and religious.
Luckily i am a free thinker.. hmm..
OK, so this will only means that.. no tv, no pc, no nothing for the 49 days..
And if i'm not wrong, the renovation will go on for at least a month.
So, a month + 49 days without any entertainment. This can really kill someone=.=
Think i will be staying up late at regional library before going home to face the wallsssss...

ok, so, dont miss me..((:

- Ain't a good season ... ♠ Monday, April 14, 2008

Saturday, April 12, 2008

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Yey. I am promoted to sergeant now. Damn happy. No words could explain how i feel now!
Gratx to all who promoted together!
We rox each other and now, we get to hold the whole unit now!
How wonderful life could be!=D
Anyway, just now went hospital to visit my grandma.. i got this sudden urge to cry..
I look at her sorrowful eye, suffering from the pain, and panting for air..
MY tears dropped straight away. She have become much more ewaker each time i visit her.
She cant move by herself. She looks so pale, so helpless.. so.. i dont know what else i can say.
I really wish she could regain her strength and scold or nag me for everything i do..
I regret so much that in the past i didn't treasure times i spent with her..
GRANDMA I REALLY LOVE YOU ALOT!><

Another thing which makes me very sad too..
jialu say that she cried.. she cried over me. Over what i wrote in my previous post.
I am sorry.. SOrry.. sorry..
You meant alot to me.
What hurt most is not that useless guy. IS you.
You always have something on to turn me down.
You always have studies to cover the time you spend with me.
You always are so busy.
You dont always spend time with me anymore.
But you still mean alot to me.
When JT always pangseh you,
I always wanted to confront her.
But i stopped myself.
Coz i know you still want her to be your friend..
I always wanted to tell you you are always rejecting me..
But i hold myself back.. coz i know i should'nt ask for too much..
You are closer to 3a than me.
But it's ok, coz i know that is your future.
What ever i am thinking and upset with..
Is all about you..
I never thought you thought my heart dosen't have you at all.
It make me sad, it hurts me alot.
But i know i am no far better,
coz you are sad becoz of me.. But i really hope that.. we will forever be best friend.
Forever best friend, best friend forever!><

- Ain't a good season ... ♠ Saturday, April 12, 2008

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等待一点一滴你对我感到安心
感觉朋友关系有了新的默契
便利商店里谁也买不到
我们最想要的东西只握在喜欢的人手上
给我你的爱让我陪着你去未来
给我你的爱手拉着手不放开
就算宇宙爆炸海水都蒸发
只愿你的记忆里有我的拥抱

我的最大幸福是发现了我爱你
灵魂有了意义用每一天珍惜
便利商店里谁也买不到
我们最想要的东西只握在喜欢的人手上
给我你的爱让我陪着你去未来
给我你的爱手拉着手不放开
就算宇宙爆炸海水都蒸发
只愿你的记忆里有我的拥抱

雨和天空也有相爱的可能
望着你的微笑情不自禁
给我你的爱让我陪着你去未来
给我你的爱手拉着手不放开
就算地球毁灭来不及流泪
只愿你的记忆里有我的拥抱

- Ain't a good season ... ♠ Saturday, April 12, 2008

Thursday, April 10, 2008

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Everyone has 2 sided face. Everyone acts infront of everyone. Nobody is pure. Nobody shows the true them. In other words, Everyone is hypocrite.
There must be something wrong with me. Why do i get so aggitated and angry so easily..?
I just realized. I get so unhappy with some silly little things. Get so upset with even sillier things.
Am i really going insane soon? Everyday.. everytime.. all i do is thinking and thinking and thinking. Everything.. i wasted so many braincell thinking of got de dont have de. What is this?!
Maybe the only person i never neglect is hx.. right? i felt sorry that i have neglected christ.. as well as yan hong. Most important is jialu.. AHH!!! I MUST BE OUT OF MY MIND! They say happy ending means the end of the happiness.. I suppose i prefer not to have happy ending.
Let sorrow and anger mix with the happiness.. Thats what make our life colourful. LEt's not end what we have now.. shall we?

Who can make me seems stronger..? What do i need to become stronger..?
Where can i strengthen my strength..? When will i find myself stronger..?
How long more do i need to prove i'm stronger..? Why can't i woke my idea..?
Why is life so hard..? Why can't the society change to become better..
Why am i still alive..

- Ain't a good season ... ♠ Thursday, April 10, 2008

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

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Heii. I so hyperic high! TOday's E maths test should be able to get... more than 5 le bah?=X
ANd And, my chem Q.A test got 23/50!! yey! from the first test 16, to the previous test 19 Until now 23! heii, thats a great improvement k? ah boon also say this test is quite a difficult one And he say i can get 23 Is considered good ok!? ANd thats quite a good news to me that I am catching up with the class already.. i will work harder!=DNOW need to settle my phy, A maths and... what else?! oo!! my chem! still got something else. SHIT. AH MY GEOG PROJECT! so many things to be settled.. zzz..

And CL you dont act as if you are innocent can?! huh?! it is proved that you did say me fatcat. IF you say sorry i will sua. But too bad you wanna ce my dai ji. I never ce you why you come ce me. You have yourself to blame for all this. Yes, i am irritating. So?! who invited this chaos?! you yourself to blame. Dont put me into the starting of this chaos. too bad i am always so particular in the insults. But this is the first that invited me for chaos. And ONCE AGAIN, YOU YOURSELF TO BLAME. LAO HU BU FA HUI DANG WO SHI BING MAO?! Get a life. WHo are you to say me? You better watch out. What i wanna post in my blog is my buisness, who read is thier buisness. YOUR blog is also your buisness.. I dont find a need that you have to tell me you deleted the post.

- Ain't a good season ... ♠ Wednesday, April 09, 2008

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

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Today sport heat rain. Stupid. Time wasted for waiting. I really dont get it. Why do we still have to wait for the rain to stop and continue the heat. IT's like.. not necessary.

Then before school ends, that SOMEONE come and say WU CL what what what him. COZ OF WHAT I HAVE WRITTEN ON THE PREVIOUS AND POST.
WHatever. That WILL only shows what a "man" you are((:
Not happy i also dont care. DONT bother. IT's you who aggitated me first. Maybe you are not serious BUT i am. MIND YOU. Stop being a hypocrite.. You are no far better. (:

I got something to say. Eh.. i want a song from you. =DD Please tell me you understand what i meant.

- Ain't a good season ... ♠ Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Saturday, April 5, 2008

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Hi. Yesterday, Npcc got nothing to do. And so, few of us was slacking around. cool.
Then teach some of them how to do lashing. =D
And.. Ok, crap. After that, wait for jialu to finish her NCO test. Then go home le.
No no, havent. play and fool around with Ho jun lin and Cheang wei loong. lol. stupid sial.
Aiyo, crap crap. ok, the thing i want to say is, after that, LIu yue and me went home together..
Then when we reached jurong east interchange, waiting for the train to lakeside, the train very cramp.
Damn many people. The door is closing soon. And there is so many people until there is no place for us. Then liu yue saw there is still some space in another side, she pulled my hand and ran with me there, we got in in time! heehee. so touched=X

Anyway, very funny! lol.. that morning, When my mother went out for breakfast with my cousin's parent, she was talking on phone and walking at the same time. Then all of the sudden,
she say,"OH! I FORGOT TO TAKE MY PHONE!" haha! Then my cousin's mother say, " HUH, THEN HOW?!?" MY cousin's father is much more clever. He say,"HUH? YOU GOT ANOTHER HANDPHONE?" haha! MY mother is talking to someone WITH HER PHONE and she say she never bring her phone, my aunt also blur with her..=X

Another one, Just now my aunt was clearing the tablet. She use a small broom and sweep, then she want to sweep it in the dustpan, She took her dustpan upside down, then she wanted to sweep it in, cannot marh.. then she say," eh? why cannot de?!" hahaha! she dont even know she took it another way round!!! DAMN FUNNY!=X

- Ain't a good season ... ♠ Saturday, April 05, 2008

Friday, April 4, 2008

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Hi.. Today is a fine day(: but yesterday... lol.. when we went to the humalities room, SOMEONE sat beside me..
He told me alot of things. Few month ago, he once told me that HE is someone who dont deserve me to love.. And he is quite right.. lol.. He analyze alot to me bout what he think of him by judging his look. Hmm.. I must admit, that time.. What he say is really unbelievably precise..
I even thought he knew HIM. But becoz i love HIM so much that, i dont want to believe his words. He say i will regret.. lol, and i did. But that is a past tense.. Let bygones be bygones.. No point doing anything anymore. HIS clique and HIM are so.. hmm..

Ohya, back to what i wanted to say. SOMEONE told me that WU CHENGLONG told him that
HE and his clique's topic is forever pornography; masturbating. ER XIN LARH.
Everyday at there masturbate=...= No girl to touch go touch himself =...=
Then SOMEONE say not only HE himself say that.. his clique join in too..

Then today another someone told me that.. SYS provide the most info on pornography.. lame larh..
That SOMEONE also very what de lorh.. pollute my mind=...=
AND WHAT THE FISH LARH! KNN WU CL! SAY WHAT I AM A FAT CAT?! YOU GO EAT SHIT CAN?! THIS IS NOT A QUESTION. DONT BOTHER ANSWERING. YOU VERY THIN SO WHAT?! HUH?! BONE ONLY LARH. ZHU MAO.

Anyway, my A maths test... i get only.. 6 out of 20.. cool isn't it?><
My E maths 5/20, Amaths 6/20. Eat shit. My maths hor.. ohmigod dde..
PLEASE LARH CATHRINE PEH! USE YOUR BRAIN CAN?! COME ON, WORK IT

- Ain't a good season ... ♠ Friday, April 04, 2008

Thursday, April 3, 2008

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Yesterday is upper sec's cheerlead. Our class start the cheer with that cute cute "3B squarepants" song.. haha! It goes alright but suddenly LKY came out doing some actions.. which is a disgrace to him and so is our class.. Why he wanted to disgrace himself by suggesting this idea! I mean.. it's not necessary. For what attract this kinda attention><
As expected, the sec 4 and 5s won. coz most of them is graduating this year, so let them have the last cheer of their sec school life. pardonable larh=p
Anyway, 4A cheer is great. So is 4B's. But 5(A or B?) is the best. Really. lol=X

The next thing is about my studies.. AGAIN! lol.. My pure sciences is seriously CMI><
And now is my mathss.. My E math is dropping.. like landscape.. drop so much that i almost breakdown.. On the name list with our results beside our name.. i got 5/20 for the latest test.
guess what? ms kang even show us how much we improved or depproved..
For me, i am the only girls that deproved alot.. -25! I dropped by so many.. can you imagine.. ><

Christ and me walked towards the com lab as instructed, when i saw the walls, i got a sudden urge to bang on it.. so i banged my head on the wall.. not very hard.. but very pain.. lol! Now my head got a small portion with that invisible - Blueblack.=...=
Whatever!
PURE SCIENCES DRIVE ME CRAZY, AMATHS PUSHES ME TO MY LIMIT, EMATHS IS GIVING ME THE URGE TO DROPDEAD! I AM GOING TO END MY LIFE SOONER OR LATER! PERHAPS I SHOULD NOT BE IN 3B! I AM NOT FIT TO BE IN THERE!
I SERIOUSLY CAN TAKE IT NO LONGER..!Maybe to that particular someone, HE MAY be smiling inside that i am going to be insane. And thats a good news. haiix..
Without him, i somehow feel that going to school is abit of meaningless.. What is this?! huh?! What is going on with me!

- Ain't a good season ... ♠ Thursday, April 03, 2008