I am not self-obsessed, but i really am very proud of myself!=p
Days ago(hmm.. few days ago, i am still slacking, lazy to post. pardon me=p)
we went for the campcraft competition.(girls team) Jialu, me and hx is the flag staff's.
And me is the flag raiser. i raised the flag high up, and it's cool, our flag is flipping here and there,
the logo is well seen=) all flag pole up, 4 flag on the flag pole, only 2 is flying, which also mean
only our school and cambera's flag logo can be fully seen. cool eh?=p
Anyway, just the last min, our shelter still CANNOT MAKE IT. So, jasmine suggested we secure it with bricks. And i dont understand how, i ran and took one brick=.=
If my mind work fast enough, our shelter would be able to stand!>< stand="p" nevermind="p"><
I REALLY HATE MYSELF FOR THIS! I WANT MY BRAIN TO WORK!! ARGH!
Today, heard some girls scolded vulgarity.. hmm..
For girls to scold vulgarity, is very awkward. Any vulgar that come out from my mouth
I got a harsh temptation to slap myself. I seek for forgiveness from the saint.
It dont really suits girl. serious.. lol! I mean, why.. for what scold vulgar at others when
you yourself hate it to being scolded. It's quite stupid to make yourself upset over some unnecessary things. lol=X
I love him. I Still love him. I cant stop myself.
Sorry hx, i didn't keep up my promise.
But love is blind! Like that time, ken and you.
You took a long time to forget him also, right?!
Same here! if you dont help me, give me somemore time,
I might as well drop dead. Whatever i do, kills me inside you know?
haiix.. You know. you do. But he dont. he know nothing at all..
My desire is no longer existing. My dreams is so transparent.
My life at school is just so lifeless.. I am a gonner.
NO matter what i do, what he do,
I just love him. For the first time,
I love him so deep! I dont want! i dont want!
I just love him ; 我就是那么爱他。
The gaint hole is actually a diamond mine in Eastern Siberia near the town Mirna. It is 525 meters deep and 1.25 km in the diameter.
Just today, that i understand... that every mother in this world, thier tolerance towards their child is UNLIMITED! You see, no matter how you shout at them, or what so ever, they will never shout or scold any vulgarities at you. Further more, they will still do your things no matter what>< HAHA! just after the picture is taken, another taken without giving any warning lol=X
I watched as the 2 america boys(i supposed) playing slam dunk in the water.. watching as the kids playing.
Haha... wierd... My eyes so small=( Took it in the "train")
while waiting for the renting of bicycle. lol=X
Haha.. when we return, we went to walk walk for awhile. This is taken at the rooftop. I was wanderring why is that place prohibited.. hmm..=(
Today is such a geng day.. lol!
today last period is physics lesson.. after such a long day of study,
we were like, all half dead... i walked down towards physics lab, with full of tireness. z Z z
When teacher allowed us to go in, i went in with my normal pace towards my seat.
But today's feeling is abit unusual.. hmm.. sort of.. dont know what is going on.
Perhaps still in holiday mood.. heii, i didn't really have a holiday! lala!
Anyway, i watch at the bunsen burner which is lighted as i pass by it, and to my seat.
When everyone has settled down, we watched as teacher took a stake of paper and burnt it infront of us.
The first thing that struck my mind, was that, that stake of paper might be our test paper....because that day when we have the test, no teacher is around. Alot of us copied during the test. Maybe someone baoto(betray) us.
I listened as christine talk, and explain what the teacher are causing by burning the papers, how irresponsible he is, so on and so forth.
Just like what i expected, it is our test paper. Teacher got really fed-up and scolded us, for good.
people who walk pass, came to halt around, wonderring what happened...
And another lab's teacher, mr.tan, stuck his head against the door, which is the entrance to both lab. His action was cute.=p
OK, i must admit, we have ourselve to blame and teacher is kind enough to give us a retest on everything we learnt in sec 2 which i think i might not even get 20% . haiix.. saddenning..
And this, is the very first time in my life, watching as teacher burnt our paper in to ashes out of anger............................
Today's english not very good. coz i lost my show not tell paper! That is such a precious paper and i lost it! sobbing!............
What a bad whether. Is the sky crying for us? kidding kidding=p
today is damn fuukefuukefuukety fuukey cold.
I went to school, leaving my sweater behind. When i realize it, oh crap.
i trembled my way to school. A maths lesson, too bad the lessons clash with npcc badges course.(which mean i have to go to school for the consecutive day. saddening)
So shahrul and me decided we have one of the lessons the day before. And arrange one more after this one week holiday. This cannot be helped as for this past few weeks, wasted too much time in wanderland, having a stupid mind and crazy thought that someone will accept me, trying so much, which to others is a fool. Becoz of my childishness, my study got corked up.
My own stupidity to blame. so, must pick myself up, Buck up buck up!
After the lesson, it's even colder than few hours ago. Now, standing at the front gate, with my arm folded against my chest, bitting my own teeth, cant stop trembling.
First time, i am so happy to see jon kor with his jacket on, walking up. xD
I stopped him and said, "kor! kor!"
Without hesitation, he took off his jacket, cover it over my head and walked towards the bus stop in the rain. I am so touched!><
I am so dissapointed with myself that because i am so cold until i cant stand it, i dont bear to return him the jacket on me.. I said " i sibei cold lei, kor, please lend me. Tomorrow return you"
Again, without hesitation, he agreed! That makes me happy, but more to dissapointment.
I know that he is cold too.. he is trembling too, hmm.. maybe. But i took away his warmth!=X
I should consider myself lucky to have this kinda godbro.
Just now forgot to say thanks... THANK YOU KOR! YOU THE BEST^^
YES~ heii, i did wrote a post on 29th feb. THE LEAP YEARS! HA!
Just mentioned about the movie " The leap years" and i felt abit sad that i've done nothing on that day. But heii, i did.. cool~the post, when you scroll down, it's about the incident of jialu and mingren and aaron. lol. goodness.. that day. hmm.. let's forget bout it bah!
I WANNA WATCH THE LEAP YEARS! AH! CHRIST! I ALWAYS KNOW IT'S YOU! AH!
JASPER! YOU TOO! HAHA. Too bad both of you came at the bad time=p
Great day.
I've finally, for such a long time, dont something that i am proud of.
Yesterday. i chatted with someone. which really pushes me to my limit.
All i could think of, is how am i going to slap PWX.
Today, i went to school.. preparing for NCO's test. Still wonderring how can i slap PWX.
And i get to see him 3 times. 3 times. But miss it. For some reason. And he left.
When i saw his cliques and him left, i was thinking, lucky crap.
Never did i know, his clique and him came back. what a great opportunity.
After npcc dismissed, hx, christ and me went to look for him.
Foyer. As hx and i fasten our footstep, i clenched my fist. hx walk upwards first and pushes jonathan away and a tight slap on his face. I do the same thing. I raised my hand, waiting to let another blow on his face, he raised his hand up, and blocked my hand. I looked into his eyes. His expression full of unexplainable. Why, why didn't i just slap again? Why...
从我爱上你的那天起,我一直在怪我自己。怪我自己为什么这么没有用, 就只会烦你,跟你讲东讲西的。。
也只能怪我自己太傻,被你骗得团团转, 自己还不之道, 还真的以为你会接受我。。
吃吃的等。到头来,你却是在玩弄我的感情。。哦。。是应为我自愿送上们的,对吧?
一脚踏这么多支船, 小心船没靠岸, 就跌死了。。
你怎样?我被你耍得这样了,你很高兴吧?
怎样?下一个目标是。。。?
哦哦,差点忘了,你现在正有个目标哦哦。。可能她比较不幸一点, 有你在喜欢她吧。。
其实, 我在想。。Without your mask, where will you hide....?hmm...
That day.. hmm.. i confronted jin hui.. eh, let me use some show not tell format...
Days ago, when i heard something somewhere, MY heart sank instantly. I felt a stabbing pain in my heart, as though it had been stung by a thousand bees. My heart pain was unbearable and drove me to tears..
Somewhere before that day, i saw jin hui and she walked with wx. she told me she is going home with him.. and everytime i ask whether is there robotics, she merely said is or no, most of them are weixiang, how she tikle him, how she play with him.
I mean, it's alright that you play with him. It's perfectly alright. I't dosent matter what. even if he likes her, i also got nothing to say. tell me and i will let go, although it's hard, but atleast for his happiness, I WILL. But heii, why do you have to keep telling me how close you are with him.
are you trying to make me jealous or are you showing off that you are close to him? And jin hui, dont anyhow put your emotions on others. That really makes your attitude sux. ><>< i wished to post this coz this really bothers me alot! I bet you know nothing bah?
I could feel the heat boiling beneath my skin's surface, ready to burst any seconds.
The day after, i confronted jin hui. Actually not confrontation. Just wanna tell her what i wanna say. Like how i feel bout her attitude towards me. Nothing to do with weixiang.=)
And after that, over the net, I confronted wx. not as in confront. also telling him how much i have enough of him.. haiix.. i hate him. When i hate him, i hate myself even more. Who am i to demand anything from him? What am i to criticize him? I am nothing. Anyway, if he hates me, just let it be. I have nothing, much that i can do. Dissapointment had choked me like like fumes from a burning on fields, I stood there, alone, and wondered, what just happened? I tried desperately not to cry, but failed miserably.
Whatever it is, everything happens with it's own purpose((:
故事的小黄花
从出生的那年就飘着
童年的荡秋千
随记忆一直晃到现在
吹着前奏望着天空的我
想起花瓣试着掉落
为你翘课的那一天
花落的那一天
教室的那一间
我怎么看不见
消失的下雨天
我好想再淋一遍
每想到失去勇气我还留着
好想再问一遍
你会等待还是离开
刮风这天
我试过握着你手
但偏偏,雨渐渐
大到我看你不见
还要多久
我才能在你身边
等到放晴的那天
也许我会比较好一点
从前从前有个人爱你很久
但偏偏风渐渐
把距离吹得好远
好不容易又能再多爱一天
但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜...
我会学着放弃你 是因为我太爱你,
佳露.
Cathrine, 6teen.
Need no further intro.
TEARS -
~ Trying hard not to hear ;
~ Everything that surround ;
~ Ain't Adolescent ;
~ Revealing dissatisfaction ;
~ Sorrow to be hidden .
THAT ' list of desires ' .
Do I need one?(;
~ fly me to the moon.
- DEAD SILENCE .
I don't need that . Speak your mind . (;
- ADIEU.
- VAULT .
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- MELODY .