- Unsuccessful escape .

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

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i'm here again.. it's been days since i last visit you.. lonely? haha..
i'm here to post something.. as i somehow, felt abit of depress...
hmm.. maybe it's depress... i dreamt of him.. - him.. my childhood play buddy...

(flash back) i saw him... who is that.. so rude.. no manners at all.. and the way he sat.. so.. derrhh..
the first time i saw him.. was in P3.. when i first transferred school from Dazhong to Unity..the first impression from him is.. no good.. haha.. he sat in a unusual way where he put his leg on the chair.. and rocking it.. so i hardly even looked at him.. or even wanting to know him..

Sad to say.. when times went by, i get to know some news.. abit shock though.. his mother..
is one of my mother's friend! my mother and her mother even introduced us to each other..
then i get to know.. he, same as me.. was transferred in that year too.. he was from concord primary.. i still remember he once told me that=p
after that time, we used to get together.. not in school.. in school, although we are classmate, and we just transferred there.. but our fate is totally different..
to tell you the true, he is super hyper ly active he speaks alot.. when we are together.. i think.. he is the one who always kept me company... haha..

ok, back to our topic.. so, because of his well-going character, he gets to get along with every guys in the class well within.. less than a week.. and me.. i dont even have a friend.. and i was so alone.. in the class.. P3 is the most most most most MOST miserable years i ever gone through..
i was odd one out in the class.. all girls in the class despises me alot.. they hated me.. worst of all! i didn't provoke the girlss who is popular in the level.. but i dont get it.. why they wanted all the girls to leave me.. i dont know why.. they said dont play with me. dont talk to me.. to put it simple, "dont friend her" that is what they do as a class against me..

i was alone whe n i do everything.. nobody cares bout me.. i remember.. my form teacher and maths teacher also dosen't seem to like me as well.. when my form teacher lesson, english.. we was separated in groups.. as my class despises me alot.. they always bully me..
in my eyes.. they seems to be bullying me.. but fact is.. i dont know..
what they do is.. say i looked like a pig.. and always say " pig.. go take the worksheet" "pig.. collect the books and pass up.." DOTX!! and alot alot more.. i ofthen cried.. in front of the whole class and i know they are sick of it too.. as well as my form teacher.. but she seems not concerned at all.. that was really hard for me to live.. life is so hard that time..

the only fun times was.. when i was with him.. that is true.. because of some reason, my mother dosen't have time to pick me up after school... so.. my mother and his mother decided..
that i go to thier house until late at night when my mother is free, then come and fetch me home..
that time, i remember he was the only guy that talk to me alot alot.. he dont look down on me..
we get along very well.. i went to his house.. play with him, do homework with him.. and chat whatever we can chat.. the most fun time i ever had since i transffered..

these days dont last forever.. i know that.. soon.. my mother dosen't have to work until so late at night.. so.. i dont go his house anymore.. but we still talked in school.. i really like to be with him..
until P4.. when we were all separated.. i felt much happier than before.. i get new friends.. i dont cry like helpless baby anymore.. i really like this feeling of.. i'm a part of the class..

- Ain't a good season ... ♠ Wednesday, December 05, 2007